Had a concert at Winspear lat night which was great and there was free food, mmmmn.  If you are into the arts you can probably cut your food bill in half, with all the openings and concerts.  The thing is its usualy pretty good food to.

Random Stuff: 
played squash today, was fun. had quest lecture, actualy understood him. am using my labtop directly beside a desktop.

Lily's joke: Knock, knock.  Who's there?  Barrel.  Barrel who? Barrel eat ya if you don't play dead.  Ha Ha haaaaa....

Poem:  

NOISE

What is the point of the noise?  The noise that I have learnt to listen for.  It consumes my mind yet it is forever foreign.  

I strive to make it yet can never control it.  That which I fear and yet hold near.

Noise is the STUFF in life.  It burdens me.  It makes me dizzy.  Yet I am frightfuly unstable without it.

Should I run or fight?  Fear criples my mind, yet my soul cries fly. 

By: Michael Brown

Hear my prayer, please Father God.

God help me to believe so I can see.  Give me an uncorrupted heart.  Help me to see your purpose for my life.  Why me?  How I am week for I do not know your will?  I thank you God in this time of worry, God for you are good and merciful.  I know you are rightous you are just you are faithful, you are so much to me I know I could not breath without you.  

I depend on you God for life, satisfaction, purpose, sanity for worth.  I am wraped up in you and you are perfect.  You make me whole and I thank you through any struggle.  God I plead with you to heal my beloved.  I ask because I believe you can, I believe you will.  You break me every moment and I realize how much I depend on you my God.  You are so close to me I feel you.  

I want to hear you God, I will listen and hear you speak.  I desire to obey you God.  I wish to give my life as a humble sacrifice to you in loving adoration of who you are.  I thank you for loving me, for living and dying for me to know that I am your child.  I can never know how you could love me but I will be eternaly thankful, oh my wonderful, my sweet amazing God.

It all ended with a bad plan.  My fundraising dinner/ silent auction / concert was going to be my big break.  I was going to donate a couple of paintings to the silent auction and then invite everyone I know.  The idea was that after they got a sampling they would all want more and I would give them my information and the rest of the paintings I could earn a proffit from.  However, things don't always work out as planed particularly when you don't invite anyone to come.  Well actualy I did invite some folks but nothing happened and the deadline for tickets quickly arived.  I decided that I would take my girlfriend for a fancy dinner instead however, after I baught two $50 tickets I began thinking that perhaps she wasn't realy interested in all the hoopla so I started looking for a buyer again for my two tickets.  I couldn't find anyone to go and at the last minut I asked her wich realy kills the romance, especialy after she saw me called everyone I knew. The real trouble was trying to convice her of the fact that I actualy had baught them for us to go.  Lesson learned.  She didn't believe as redily.  Michael

Ahh what a day.  I am wiped.  Life is short

Here I am with Lily Ma, she is great! I love her in all her aspects.

Shot in the butt by brother Stephen on his birthday.

Also it was Stephen's birthday today, we played paint ball and he shot me in the but.  It hurt.  I was shot in the mouth gaurd and the paint ball splatered in my mouth.  Yeeucck.  Tasts like dandiline milk. Thats all.  Gona work on my papers now. 

Scientology is fun.

Fact: Drugs are bad.  Fact:  Scientology is all true.  Fact:  Scientology is not a form of humanism with frodian and eastern religious influences topped off with a touch of pulp fiction/science fiction.  Fact: Only L.Ron Hubard has found the amazing truth found in his writings.  That's all for now. Over and out.

Church of Scientology

Goin to the church of scientology this morning. Should be interusting. I guess I should brush up on my science fiction.